Today, I'm contemplative. About nothing in particular, but I'm not spacing out, at the same time. I'm really thinking about things. About the life I chose and about how I got smarter. I used to be one of those people who acted like they didn't know how to have the life they wanted. Maybe I was psychologically impaired for a while and that hindered my good decision making. But I'm proud of the person I'm becoming now, for it's always an ongoing process. Even when you're thirty-two.
There's nothing more frustrating to me now than to hear someone tell me about an aspect of their life that they are miserable about and it's something that's totally fixable. I used to get sucked into other people's problems and make them my own and not sleep at night. I seemed to be growing out of that, too, thankfully. Well, not the not sleeping at night part. I still do that for other reasons.
I'm excited about my future with my family. I'm interested in seeing who Christian and Madeline become. They are amazing children right now. Christian's wit and intellect will get him far. He really is a sharp kid. He's not afraid of making an ass out of himself in front of others and that's one of the most important keys to enjoying life. Maddy is a pistol, as Grandma would say. She's got a bit of my temperment, but she knows when stop. She hasn't fully exhibited her Pisces sensibility yet. I hope she acts more like Richie than me. He is definitely more patient and kind.
I love you.
